I must say, Ive been the happiest ive been in over a year now.. and i couldnt ask for a better reason. Theres a girl i know, and shes absolutly perfect. I can tell her anything and she listens and helps me. she always makes me laugh and smile. i could go anywhere with her and be happy. i really couldnt ask for anyone better. i want her to know how i feel, even though im sure she already does. :D. I adore this girl, and i couldnt ask for anyone better, honestly, i couldnt. <3
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    Bright Eyes


This is the first day of my life
I swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
Now I don’t know where I am
I don’t know where I’ve been
But I know where I want to go

And so I thought I’d let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realize that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange you said everything changed
You felt as if you had just woke up
And you said “this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy”

So if you want to be with me
With these things there’s no telling
We just have to wait and see
But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
Then waiting to win the lottery
Besides maybe this time is different
I mean I really think you like me
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    Bright Eyes

she means so much to me

we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
i'll never let go.

why does tonite, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.

<3 im happy.. very very happy..
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    Matchbook Romance


If I could, I would turn everything around.
I would rewind to the good times we have had.
Why does everything have to go this way.
Everything just seems to disappear in time.
This time, it was shorter than last.
I can remember holding hands in the dead of winter.
Running, laughing, throwing snowballs at passing cars.
In the fall, smoking cigarettes watching the leaves fall.
Looking at the autumn moon and the magnificence it brought.
I thought those days would never end.
It turns out I was childish then.
Ive brought myself to a new point in life.
You may believe i don't care anymore.
What we had was special, and I will never forget.

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FUCK- the friends i thought i knew

FUCK- the girls that always play with my head

FUCK- my parents for thinking im crazy

FUCK- me for believing in myself

FUCK- me for having the 'wrong friends'

FUCK- me for being a hipocrit

FUCK- me for trying to hard

FUCK- me for getting attached..

but fuck you for letting me

my heart seems to stay still

My heart is still
But everything keeps on working
I can still breath
I can still walk
It seems as if my heart is stuck on something
I try to get it free
For months I avoid it
But I start trying to make it work again
But it stays still
And occasionally
I do feel it sink lower and lower

I always said to myself
Its better to stay single
But then I realize being single means being alone
And being alone means being with someone briefly
Not having someone to love
Now im eating those words I praised
I thought it would be best not to get attached
Once again, I ate my words
Thinking it would all work out
Suddenly everything fell apart
Deja-vu all over again


well i dont know anymore.. ive been getting into one of those fucking depressive states again.. and i hate it.. i jsut hope everything starts to look up..
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    Pedro the Lion


i have to fucking work today from 4-11.. on fucking easter sunday.. FUCK YOU BAY CITY..

oh and by the way.. i dont suggest anyone eat there anymore.. they take the rolls that they think no one touched.. and re use them.. there are cockroaches everywhere.. and its a shit hole.. pass it around.. i dont want them making any fucking money..
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    The Mars Volta


well everything has been looking up i guess.. im just tired of being so lonely all the time.. idk.. im just in an emo mood.. and i feel dead.. its not good.. i hate when i get like this.. i just hope everything goes good..
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